im so not good at this.....

so when I started this blog it felt like i had a billion and one things to say.... but for the past few months life has grabbed a hold of me and taken me away and there just doesnt seem to be enough time. I have been a faithful lurker of your blogs, reading but sadly not commenting, I enjoy keeping up with you all and envy that you are so interesting and good at time management.



I do happen to have an interesting story, ok well maybe not super great interesting but certainly bizarre enough that it might catch your attention...



You may or may not know that i am expecting. Before you wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing, I will tell you it is a good thing. i am super happy and my boy friend is as well. It will be his first child and I am 18 weeks along as i type this out. Is it kinda soon since I havent' been seperated from my husband all that long? i guess you could think of it that way. but there are many more details that go in there that really seem irrelevant to me. We are happy and healthy and my son is doing bette than i eve imagined and so life is sweet.



Anyway, so yes I am preggo and I have a uterine tear with a small bleed that seems to be under control but really the heavy lifting is left to the boys now. I no longer haver to lug our laundry up and down three flights of stairs to complete. I have help. and when I say help i mean a boyfriend who is willing to do it:) he even folds it all:) no he is not for sale, lmao.



anyway, so he tells me to gather my laundry together and he will get it started. i do just that once again smiling that it wont be me carrying it all. did i mention we live on the third story?



he goes up and down the stairs, toting laundry and detergent and dryer sheets. up and down. up and down. several horus pass and the laundry is complete. I begint o put it away. my sons thigns are done, now onto my own....



everything is so nicely folded and easy to put away because he not only folds it but sorts it into piles. I complete my task and go about getting ready for work. I really think nothing funny until i go to my sock drawer to put on socks. there aren't any except a pair of red and green christmas socks and a pair of knee high striped toe socks.



Where are all my socks?



i recheck the laundry basket.... empty



i ask my boyfriend if all the laundry is indeed finished.......yes



i return to my drawer incase i missed them the first time......still no socks



i sit down on the bed baffled.



i go back to the living room and grab my boyfriend and take him to my sock drawer and open it and ask him if he sees socks.



well of course he sees the christmas socks, takes them out and hands them to me and walks away.



It is now two weeks later and I have to tell you I still have not seen hide nor hair of my socks. I feel i should elaborate that we do laundry about every two weeks and I therefore have enough sicks to last me that long. meaning I had aprrox 15 to 16 pairs of socks go missing.



i've heard of the dryer eating socks, but 30 individual socks?



needless to say i examine my neighbors feet thoroughly each time i encounter them curious to know who is the proud new owner of 15 pairs of dollar socks from target......

so what's new?

so, what has happened in the last few weeks? well......

we went on vacation to the beach which was great! a much needed break and though it was honestly weird to do it the first time without my ex/dom's daddy, it was a much needed break! the waether was beautiful and we had fun:)

once we got back it was time to get into school mode for dom who is is third grade this year and being homeschooled by his mommom. she chose to use the abeka program which i am super happy with and he is loving school, tho maybe not so much the homework. its great for me too because he is with her from about 10 til 3 every day and so i get some time to ge tthings done plus i have always wanted to pack him lunches ( dont ask me why) and now i get to!

i am currently taking a statistics class and hating every moment of it. apparently when i got my laptop about two years ago it came with programs and i somehow lost the packaging and so i dont have the product key to set up excel and so i cant do my homework:( boo for me. not sure what im gonna do about that....

and last but not least, i found out the day before we left for vacation that m and I are expecting:)

we are so happy and excited, we go to the doctor tomorrow for the first appointment and according to my calculations i will be 7 weeks and 5 days tomorrow:)

so how have you all been?

long hiatus

so dear bloggy friends. i took a hiatus. I apologize for no warning ahead of time, but i just had to take some time. Some of my posts were so angry, hell i was so angry and thats not me. I am not filled with hate or anger, and i do not wish to have those things in my life. So, i needed to take a break and get myself together a little bit before coming back here:)

so many things have happened and honestly i wasn't sure if i might ever return but then shannon suggestd i do and i thought, yeah she's right, i big time miss blogging:)

so here i am!

I want to take sometime and fill you all in on everything thats been goingon pictures included, but for now i wanted to post something short and sweet and say hello:)

omg

dear new job,
I am truly loving you more and more every day! even though i don't much care for getting up at 5:30 in the morning, and although i don't really speak for about 2 hours unitl i have fully woken up, and even though you keep me on my toes every second of the day.....i love the challenge of learning new things!
The preceptors i have are amazing and i am so thankful to have this opportunity!
Heart you!
new employee

dear smfe,
omg, i am loving our friendship! you have helped me learn that a friend accepts you no matter what and even though they may e very very honest with you about htings, it is out of love and caring and in the end, you always have my back! I want you to know i always have yours too! i love you from the bottom of my heart!
Love you mrs p!
rev p!

dear anonymous,
i can't reveal your identity because it might cause you trouble but yesterday you helped me in a huge way. for that i am grateful. i wasn't expecting it, and you certainly didn't have to do what you did. Thankyou,
from
me

dear person who has gotten on my nerves twice tonigth already,
when i say please don't share this information with anyone....I MEAN IT! it doesn't mean you can tell your sister and your grandmom and whoever else you tell. my business is my business and i certainly will be thinking twice before i share it with you again.
thanks for pissing me off
jineen

dear psycho bitch stalker,
i guess this isn't gonna get any better. i have done absolutely nothing to you. NOTHING. you are spreading lies about me to people. i know this. you are accusing me of doing the same and i haven't done anything. i dont talk about you to anyone. i have nothing bad to say other than you can't seem to mind your own business. you are being ridiculously dramatic. you are embellishing and lying. you are making everything about you when really it isn't about you AT ALL. of course thats typical fashion for you. i tried to end it, tried to make it so that you couldn't continue to stalk me. but somehow you seem to keep doing it.
All i can say is this. i have kept my mouth shut. i didnt have to. god knows you haven't. but let me tell you something right now.
you need to leave me the hell alone.
you want to pretend like im not alive, like i don't exist? then just freaking do it and leave me alone! keep my name out of your mouth! you are crazy, there is something wrong with you. seriously.
stop coming here.
this blog isn't for you.
quit being a pyscho stalker.


dear dom,
i had SO much fun with you at the beach thursday! you are my sweetest little pumpkin and i love you, seein gyour face light up on the boardwalk, seeing how happy you are when we spend time together, walking on the beach with and enjoying your little self is the best part of my life!
mommy loves you more than anything!
mommy

im a flipflopper....

Dear bloggy friends:)
so i know i was on a bit of a rampage during my last post and in fact the one i had typed first was quite nasty. I deleted it about 10 mins after i posted it because that was anger talking and not me.
I have been thinking for the last few days and have decided not to make this private. i don't feel that i should be censored in my own blog. I am entitled to an opinion and i have the right to speak about things the way i see them. None of us know eachother anyway and i dont use names except for my own.

The things that i have shared on here are true. They are real and I will not back down on that or remove it. I stayed quiet for far too long and i will not do it anymore.

i love having this blog and i love my bloggy friends and followers. you all mean a ton to me and your advice and caring have gotten me through some tough times:) i love reading you and sharing with you.

thankyou for hanging in there:)

on a happier note, dom and i went to the beach on mnday with my bestie suzanne and her son:) best time ever! we got a little tan and a little burnt but it was a beautiful day and the kiddo's had a serious ton of fun. pics to come!
heart you all,
Jineen

Dear you's mother,
this blog is not for you. if you don't like what you are reading, stop reading it. if you dont like it because you know its the truth, too bad. at least you didn't live it. stop judging the way i am living my life, you have chosen to make me none of your concern so why do you care? do not be a hypocrite about what is wrong for me but acceptable for your son. I will repeat that this blog is truly none of your business, i do not wish for you to read it, but if you choose to continue to do so, at least have the courtesy to tell the truth about what it contains instead of exagerating and embellishing it.
it didn't have to be this way, thats on you,
Jineen

privacy....

dear bloggy friends,
it has come to my attention that there is someone reading htis blog who doesnt belong. one person who is reading out of spite and then lying about what she reads on here. she is a hypocrite, a dramatic and ridiculous person. i had quite a nasty post on here that i only left up for a few minutes because that isnt who i am.
i am either going to go private or create a new blog where i can truly be me without being judged. please let me know your opinion about which option i should choose and also email me if you would like to follow me privately or follow my new blog.
lizlovey@hotmail.com

and to the lying hypocrite,
if you dont like what you are reading because you cannot handle the truth, stop reading. stop passing on incorrect information. and stop being a judgemental hypocrite. you know who you are.

pleading for your prayers....

i am breaking traditional fashion of letter writing to beg for your prayers for my dear friends the Henn family. you may or may not have heard on the news, Nate Henn was killed in the bombing in Uganda yesterday, he was there doing charitable missions work for a cuase he eventually gave his life to. he was an amazing kid growing up and was laways good for a laugh. Today hs younger brother kyle was injured in a plane crash near his home in North Carolina.
This family is dear to my heart and i covet your paryers for them as they rally together to deal with the tragedy and loss in their life.
Thankyou sweet bloggy friends.....
Jineen