i'm sorry ladies but i'm not eating rainbows and pooping butterflies today...

.....ok, well to be perfectly honest, i never do that, but my husband says something along those lines about well, i don't know, but when he says it, his tone is sarcastic. so anyway, my point is that i am not happy today. well that's not true. i am happy but there is something alittle unpleasant brewin' round here and yours truly is smack dab in the middle.

all i can say is i choose to be honest no matter what.

some serious sh*t is going on at work and some higher ups are getting their just dessert, and sadly someone, not naming names, is the one with some of the evidence. in a way it makes me look bad because i repeated some things that were told to me. why did i repeat them? well they were concerning my very dearest friends and they weren't true. i tried to tell the person it wasn't true. they weren't believin it. if that was all, i wouldn't have cared.

i am sure you can guess it wasn't all.

it led to issues being raised and some heavy duty slander going on. i cannot stand by and watch that happen. so, i took further action.

now i look like the bad guy to some higher ups, and i had to reveal a somewhat friend for what she is. i feel lousy about that, buthonestly it is me or her. and i have no doubt in my mind she will protect herself and so i am doing the same. plus i value honesty and i can't live with myself if i tell a lie.

so now you may be thinking i am cut throat. its ok, a part of me hangs my head in shame at the thought of giving someone else up to save myself. but it isn't just myself, it is 5-6 other people. and this person is a close aquaintance. not a close friend.

now i am really sounding jumbled, but the truth of the matter is, i fear that in some way one of themmay find this blog and i am not begging for trouble.....

so anyway, now i am off for 2 days and i intend to enjoy it to the fullest. i played moon aliens with my little guy, please do not ask me to explain the dynamics of this game, suffice it to say, we are on the moon and we are fighting aliens and cops. there is a hospital that we must protect and we each have a weapon. for some reason we fight eachother with these weapons. want to know who wins?

well my son/co-alien-fighter has the hose as his weapon (with a spray nozzle attached) .....

i have a bubble gun.

we also at some point drew circles on the walkway with sidewalk chalk and those were the CIRCLES of FIRE, which incidently, were not mentioned or used thereafter in the "game".

i quite enjoy this game outside as i am getting a nice golden tan and also spending time with the midget that resides in my home. sometimes this pidget gives me lots of hugs and tells me he loves me.

some times he shits in my bed (in a pull up) and i am forced to wash the sheets to get rid of the smell. NOTHING EVEN LEAKED FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

i would like to tell you one more thing before i let you run away from this babbling...

my son has an imaginary friend. he feels it is necessary to keep this friend since he doesn't have a brother or sister. his friends name is one. the friend has a wife named ten. together they have a son and a daughter. the son's name is two and i forget the daughters name. one comes with us on trips to florida, camping and the beach. usually his wife and children do not join us. this summer however, i am curious what will happen when we leave for vacation in less than 3 weeks because one is spending the summer in china.

what does an imaginary friend do in china, all alone and without his family?

well, he eats chinese food and plays rock paper scissors of course.

i wish i still had my imagination.