here it comes

i am not quite sure where the time has gone.....i swear over a month ago i made up my little (or actually long) to-do list and started off december with good intentions. all the shopping would be done, the tree would be up and decorated by the end of the first week and the house would be continuously filled with the aroma of some delicious thing being baked....

so now it is december 20th and my fabulous list is only half done.

the tree is up (decorated this morning), no baking has been done, shopping for dom is done, but more for jerm and the others in the family. cards were sent out (everyone got haircuts, cleaned up, picture taken, transformed into card, addressed and stamped) doms room completely cleaned, my room comepletely cleaned. (i know the cleaning part was several hours in each room)

so what can i do? i work sunday night and monday night and i still have many things to be done and I AM TIRED!!!

i guess i haven't quite recovered from my 80 hours in 7 days of work....

so at least for today....drop off donations at goodwill, get milk, pick up at least one of the several gift cards on the list, more wrapping paper, and sleep.

(oh yeah, i did manage to be sure every bill is paid in advance so no bills for at least 2 weeks:)

let me know where you are in your list (don't worry i wont be mad if you are perfect and have it more together than me and i wont laugh if you dont)

i think we can makeit, but even if we dont...
here it comes

nearly christmas

I check the blogs i like to follow on almost a daily basis, and when i do not see a new post for several days, i feel disappointed. i like to hear the things going on in those lives that i feel connected to through this machine. i have even been known to request an update if more than a few weeks go by, (yes jodie i am talking about you ) and yet when i realized that i myself am not as faithful at keeping up......i guess i need to request an update from myself. these past few weeks seem to have flown by. all the planning and arranging so that the holiday season is just right seems to have eaten up all of my time.
I am almost sad that i have been running around like a nutcase missing out on the every day things.
so i am happy and proud to report the christmas and birthday shopping for dom is done. (his birthday is jan 3rd) and aside from batteries, we are ready for him. two side notes about that number one: i always plan to have all his stuff seperated and wrapped far in advance and yet every christmas eve jerm andi find ourselves up to 4 am wrapping and taping and arranging under the tree, maybe this year...
number two: dom didnt really ask for anything for christmas this year initially....he just simply made an announcement one day..

"mommy"

"yes dom"

"i am going to be santa claus this year"

"huh?"

"i said i am going to be santa claus this year"

"oh really? tell me more about this...." (obviously he has a plan and a reason as usual)

"well when i watched that movie (tim allen in "the santa claus") i decided that i could do a good job and i want to be santa. i know how ot do it"

"how?"

"well i wait until he gets to our house and then once he is on our roof i just push him off."

"what?"

"don't worry mommy, it isn't mean cuz he doesn't get hurt, he just disappears and then i look in his coat pocket and find the card and then i am santa"

"honey, that sounds like a ton of fun, but you do know that is ust a movie, santa needs to do his job and you should probably stay asleep in your bed."

"we'll see mommy, we'll see"

i must add that he walked around the house with his belly sticking out as if he were pregnant, though he is a very lanky child so there wasn't much to show. and now he asks me daily if i see any kind of beard growing on his face.

ahhh the holidays.

so i am sorry for not writing more often, and i hope everyone else is feeling as ready for christmas as me.

i am pleased as punch!

ok, so that is a terrible title. and it doesnt fit me well seeing as i am not a little old lady and i am also much happier than that. i have just discovered that someone besides me reads this.....
pipsylou you have made my day :)

i am just getting home from my third 12 hour shift ina row and i have cleaned so much poop up these past few nights i feel like i can still smell it even after my shower, perfume deodorant, lotion, face wash and more deodorant and powder just in case....

ok so i know i am just tired, but i swear do these fig newtons kind of look like...
no they dont i just have poop on the brain....

any way, i keep promising some new and enlightening update and i am just not getting it done, such is life i guess....

the holidays are here andi am trying to tell myself since my son is 6 almost 7 (next month!)
that htis will be the year that focus is on jesus birth...that this year along with all the other stuff we are really gonna help him learn and focus on the true reason of Christmas..

and yet i continue to religiously scour the toys r us website and add to our mound of toys hidden away waiting to be wrapped, fuss over haircuts and hair dye (for me) so we look super happy in pictures, collect addresses for cards...plan plan plan,the tree will go here, the lights will be arranges like this, oohh i know just what kind of cookies to make...

how do you have a balance? how do you say yes we are gonna do the santa thing and also do the jesus thing, when you know in your heart where your focus really is? i mean God knows, why am i ashamed to admit it, He already knows, and He knows i am human, He gave me that quality.

so here i am, tired, apparently unable to remove the smell of fecal matter, thinking about toys and yearning for Christ.

i guess that isn't too bad of a place to be,

maybe i really am pleased as punch:)