i am pleased as punch!

ok, so that is a terrible title. and it doesnt fit me well seeing as i am not a little old lady and i am also much happier than that. i have just discovered that someone besides me reads this.....
pipsylou you have made my day :)

i am just getting home from my third 12 hour shift ina row and i have cleaned so much poop up these past few nights i feel like i can still smell it even after my shower, perfume deodorant, lotion, face wash and more deodorant and powder just in case....

ok so i know i am just tired, but i swear do these fig newtons kind of look like...
no they dont i just have poop on the brain....

any way, i keep promising some new and enlightening update and i am just not getting it done, such is life i guess....

the holidays are here andi am trying to tell myself since my son is 6 almost 7 (next month!)
that htis will be the year that focus is on jesus birth...that this year along with all the other stuff we are really gonna help him learn and focus on the true reason of Christmas..

and yet i continue to religiously scour the toys r us website and add to our mound of toys hidden away waiting to be wrapped, fuss over haircuts and hair dye (for me) so we look super happy in pictures, collect addresses for cards...plan plan plan,the tree will go here, the lights will be arranges like this, oohh i know just what kind of cookies to make...

how do you have a balance? how do you say yes we are gonna do the santa thing and also do the jesus thing, when you know in your heart where your focus really is? i mean God knows, why am i ashamed to admit it, He already knows, and He knows i am human, He gave me that quality.

so here i am, tired, apparently unable to remove the smell of fecal matter, thinking about toys and yearning for Christ.

i guess that isn't too bad of a place to be,

maybe i really am pleased as punch:)