Wednesday, June 9, 2010

isnt it funny.....

dear you,

there are so many things running through my head today but the most very important is that I DID NOT TAKE YOUR SON FROM YOU! you gave him up.

WILLINGLY.

you didnt even try and negotiate or fight. You are so caught up in your own self that you cannot see beyond that to what you are doing to him.

right before i moved out we talked about ridiculous things, and i think maybe it was partly to make you feel better, but there are somethings i meant.

we talked about doing stuff as a family still for doms sake so that he could see us together and getting along. guess that won't be happening anytime soon. i would have done it too. i would even welcome your girlfriend to come along because the way i see it is that one more person to love our son can never be a bad thing.

but you are so hateful.

you think about you and you spread lies to everyone you touch.

when i had my nervous breakdown i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and you went around telling everyone i was bipolar and it was so hard for you to live with me.

you told everyone that you didn't hit me but you pled guilty.

you told everyone that i now have a boyfriend and am therefore a slut but you have a girlfriend.

all those lies that you convinced me of over the years have built up inside of me into some terrible twisted sickness......

now i am letting it go. you are a liar and nothing i can do will ever change that. nothing that comes out of your mouth can be trusted, but i am freeing myself of that from this moment on. leave me alone and save your lies for your famiy and friends. see how long they last.

free of the king of lies,
jineen

2 comments:

Kristina P. said...

I'm glad you're free.

Shannon said...

"Whatever is true...think about such things...And the God of peace will be with you." Philippians 4:8-9 (NIV)